I love these boys!

I went to the Aboretum with the boys today... These are some of my favorite pictures I took of them.

I dont know why they all set up wierd like that... oh well... I like em!

songs

I find the words to these 2 songs really speaking what I feel with my relationship with Christ lately.

Trust you More:
VERSE 1

I stand on solid ground, My balance is sound
I fall hardly ever.
To walk is another thing,
its too frightening,
so I stay where I am.
I wont go back but I cant move on
for fear is clouding my mind

REFRAIN
JEsus shine your light,
Lord hold my hand
and help me to trust you more

VERSE 2

A fledgling in the nest
i know I am blessed
so safe in your keeping
to fly is another thing
its too frightening
so I stay where I am
I cant grow here I
cant fly out for fear is clouding my mind

REFRAIN

VERSE 3

Oh Perfect Love that casts out fear
Come near and renew my mind,
Jesus shine your light,
Lord Hold my hand
Help me to love you more
Help me to love you more


BREAKTHROUGH

I sing all the songs,
I read all about you
I know right from wrong
What does it amount to?
If my life doesnt show
How much I love You.

REFRAIN

I need you to breakthrough
tear down the walls
let everything fall
cuz I want to praise you
nothing between you and me
I need you to breakthrough

I know there is more
I yet to discover
so many things
you want to uncover
Ive been scratching the surface
I want to go deeper

REFRAIN

Break through the pride,
Break through the shame
Ive had enough of staying the same
Break through the fear
open the gates,
Im getting tired of playing it safe

REFRAIN (x2)


Both songs are by Peder Eide. I hope they can speak to you also.

I feel stuck

So many of my friends seem to be doing something with their lives this summer. Either they are in Peru, or W. Virginia, Uganda, Mexico, wherever and where am I? I am here in hoity toity Glen Ellyn working at Giordanos with people calling to complain that I spelled their name wrong so it printed wrong on the reciept. SERIOUSLY!!! what is this? I feel cramped like I need to get out and make a difference like I should be in another state or country working for the Lord, working with kids adults working with special needs kids, anything but what I am doing and I feel like I am being stuffed in a bag without enough room to move to breathe. I know I know... take what I have and use it to witness to the people here where I am now. But have you ever been to Glen ellyn? wheaton? Naperville? if you have you know what its like to feel as if you have to be perfect have tons of money and settle for nothing less than the best. I TELL YOU I AM SUFFOCATING HERE!! I AM TIRED OF THESE PEOPLE THINKING THEY ARE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE THINKING THEIR SHIT DONT STINK! WELL I TELL YOU WHAT! SHIT IS SHIT AND IT STINKS!
I want to be back at school, back in the city where I feel as if I can reach out more make a difference for people who actually want it. Does this make any sense?

Botanic garden

Hey all, after reading a friends blog about the Chicago Botanical Gardens, I decided I would go for a day. I went with 2 friends from school, Hannah and ruthie, and let me tell you, it was a peaceful, relaxing day, and it was great to be with them. I wanted to share some pictures from the day with you. so here they are! - Chrissy.

yo no se

So I wanted to share a few Pages from my journal/sketch book. Its sort of a journal, sort of not. its hard to explain. I have pictures, words, cut outs, you know. I dont have any specific order, and I dont do one for every day. Some of the pages are from incidents that happened years ago and some are more recent. These 3 are from more recent incidents but that was just coincidence. Its sort of a neat way to journal. I like it better than just writing everything everyday you know? that sort of stresses me out, it gets overwhelming. I dont know. but I just wanted to share these.
Sorry You cant read the words on all of them, I just took pictures of my book but I think they are alright.