Down Syndrome and selective abortion

have had many times in my life when it is especially easy to believe in a almighty God.... Leadership Lab, missions trips, other youth gatherings, all places where God is truly visible, and EASY to see. However, when i leave those places, while the spiritual high last for a few weeks, the world slowly creeps in, and catches up. I get lost in the everyday, rather than the everlasting. God hasnt left, I have just quit looking. everyone has periods in their lives in which it's easy to believe. There are also periods in which questions come. We don't go looking for the doubts, but they come looking for us. The world seems to move faster than we can, and therefore, we start tossing things out, in order to give ourselves more time to do the worldly things, faith and devotions, seemingly are the first things to be pushed aside. We join a long line of people who have been asked to believe something that seems impossible from our perspective. Sometimes it seems as if God is asking us to believe in ideas, and things that to us as humans seem so impossible. To believe in an almighty God, one who will be there always, to believe we will always be ok...sometimes its hard to believe that... especially in the hard, and bad times. This is especially true when dealing with matters of life and death. We stand beside the grave of a friend, a husband, a mother, and hear the minister speak about the resurrection and Christ's return. We believe, we want to believe, but there are times that it seems impossible.Not only during the times of death, but during the times we stand by a hospital bed for the millionth time, and hear the doctors tell your mom they dont know why she is sick, or during the times of depression, and hurt.
How should we respond when God's promises seem impossible? I wish I had a great answer to that question... but i dont, I too am human, and i can say how we SHOULD or COULD respond... but the reality of it all is, when we are in those situations, those SHOULDS and COULDS go away, and the feelings we have just seem to happen. theres a story like this in the bible...Genisis 15 We're introduced to a man named Abram, who has already made huge sacrifices for his God. By the time this story starts, Abram has already showed extraordinary dedication and obedience to his God. He left his family and his homeland, risked his marriage in Egypt, and valiantly fought against a horde of foreign kings to establish his place and reputation. He even gave up his rightfully earned spoils of battle because God instructed him to forgo such a reward. This is a man who has put his life on the line, and who's never so much as questioned God. ( this story also reminds me of Job... how he never cursed God.)
The start of this story is a bit mysterious. Genesis 15:1 says, "Afterward..." It sounds like what we're about to read took place immediately after the preceding events, but you could also translate this "sometime later". How much later? Nobody knows. It could have been hours, days, or years. God's first words to Abram in this passage are also cloaked in mystery. God said, "Do not be afraid, Abram, for I will protect you, and your reward will be great." Why was Abram afraid? We don't know. It could be that he had just conquered the kings and had become a target himself, or that he feared repercussions. It could have been something completely unrelated.
We do know, though, that God had made some promises to Abram which must have seemed impossible. He had promised to make him into a great nation, and to give him the land of the Canaanites. Take a childless senior at least seventy-five years old, who's possibly in danger of being targeted by his enemies, and tell him that he's somehow going to have enough offspring to create a nation that will displace the people who already live in the land. That takes all kinds of faith. Abram faced all kinds of obstacles: his enemies, his lack of children, the delay necessary for that to happen, and the challenge of conquering and displacing the inhabitants of the land. You could forgive Abram for having some doubts.At a funeral, the pastor usually talks about the fact that the person who has died, is in a better place, is resurrected to heaven and is no longer mortal. They talk about the hope we have God, and about where that hope comes from...Jesus coming again... And i dont know about you all... but i know, that I, have heard these promises, many times, and looked at all the hard things in front of me, the obstacles, and thought those promises to be impossible. Finding it really hard to believe. so how should I and you respond when it seems those promises are impossible?
I have a few points...1-We're allowed to question God. God didn't condemn Abram for questioning him. He reassured him, gave him a visible demonstration of his promise. A pastor one time told me that the moment I stop questioning my faith and God, is the moment I have lost it. Because the questioning, the searching, it leads us to His word, and only makes us more bold and stronger in what it is we believe. 2- We're called to respond in faith despite our doubts We already read Abram's response to God after his first question. Verse 6 says, "And Abram believed the LORD, and the LORD declared him righteous because of his faith." It takes tremendous faith to bring our doubts to God, and to still respond in faith to him.It is hard to go to God in prayer...to go to a non-tangible, non humanly responsive being. We're sometimes afraid to confess our doubts and complaints to God. Don't be afraid. Now is your chance to get honest with God. Complaint is based on taking God seriously.I understand...and in my own life i often feel as if my prayers are shallow... because at that time i am having a hard time with faith... but you know what? God is still listening... So even when it is hard to believe, realize, Jesus is still in your heart, and when you have a hard time, Jesus will take over, He is still in you, and will continue believeing for you until you can do it all on your own... and He still wont leave. Peace always.